I am knitting up a storm....scarves for several people. one of which is half done alerady..Ooooh it's gonna be pretty..^_^..for now..that is all :D

I am still working. this is good. We are slowly progressing with the MOVE...it is truly EPIC. I am knitting a scarf and hat for my nephew for his birthday. he's so cute, he's gonna be 3. I am trying to keep up on my journals. But 6am is very early..and some days I don;t even want to ,ook at my journals at all. Hi to everyone, I love ya'll, you'll be hearing form me more..I think....

So...I got a job offer today..I start tomorrow...holeeeeeecrap I am nervous but not worried about it. It is something I know...KNOW I can do. It's with a small catering outfit. The guy called me back less than two hours after he interviewed me. I report tomorrow morning at 8 in the AM. That's fast, but I'd rather dive right in than wait. I am excited about this. It is exactly the kind of gig I wanted, and that's amazing after all this time. Hopefully this will mean a fresh burst of creativity too. Half my problem has been depression over the whole job market mess. We shall see how this goes, but I have such a good feeling about this.

*HUGE GRINS*.....I Can Haz JOB!

Also...... MUSE...Uprising..need I say more!?

    

I know it's been a while....The job thing didn't work out. Not going into details for now. It was exhausting and frustrating.

So..back to job hunting. And I have new art up. I am back to trying to post here regularly....and I'll keep y'all posted on the endless jobhunt...

Ok, so for those of you who don't know, I have been unemployed for the last 10 months with the awful job crunch, and I am now employed at least for the next month and a half. I have a job cooking for a summer camp. I think it will be good for my resume. but it means I am only home on the weekends. Sighs.....anyway..at least it's a paycheck. See Y'all on the flipside, and I am going to try to post more often if I can while I am home, becasue I realize I have been neglecting Y'all. >_>  Interminable jobhunt does that to me. I will be going to Country Faire though, because my Weekends are free, so I will get to see some folks there. :D...anyway. I should go I have to be there in a couple hours and OMG I am so nervous...

It's gorgeous today...and life is doing well aside from the bad bad job market. I am here, I am getting commissions. I am working on a rather weird painting...and I had strawberries and  chocolate at lunch today...life is good

This is a short post, I am still here..LOL
 I have gotten an account set up so I can take commissions. I have already finished my first one...I am all excited about this..^_^ So very happy Anyway..talk later. I am planning to start posting regularly again soonly. Blog rant is good for me.

It is a lovely day here. Sun and blue sky, and nearly 70 degrees. I want to plant things so bad, but instead I am cleaning my nasty kitchen..which gives similar satisfaction really...but EW..I better get some help and soon..sighs... Anyway...the Great Job Hunt continues, it's going on eight months now..the unemployment rate in my state explains that though 12.8% unemployment rate. Which means, if you have a job...HOLD ON TO IT!...I got laid off from my job last September, I get interviews, regularly, but nothing comes of them. There are so many applicants per job right now that it's insane to get anything. The Bi-Mart near my Mother's place had Two job openings, they got one thousand applicants per job posting. That's terrifying odds. And so I keep slinging the resume's, and cross my fingers. Hope someone needs a trained chef/baker and can't imagine not hiring me. I am damn good at what I do, but I am one of thousnads in this state and country that fell afoul of the job market drying up. The place I was working, hired way to many people when the opened, and they laid off about half their crew before the start of the school year. I was one of them, and that's when the job crunch hit. Makes me wish I'd stayed at the University. I know I will get something  eventually, but it's the daily trudge to get resume's out, and hope I get a call back, or when I call them they say, "yeah, come on down and talk to us..." You things are tight when the Employment Department job listings for anything, are so slim that they have 200-500 applicants per posted position.
That was part of my day, the other part was looking at plants, and thinking of some of the small things I could do on my patio when I get my tax return back.. Tomatoes usually do well, and I need to trim back my Sage and my sorrel is going nuts as is the Rosemary....I will need more potting soil and more bricks and so forth to get things into shape but I can have some nice stuff out there nad make it a lovely area to be out in on the hot evenings...I think I may put up a clothes line too,  fence to fence...to hand wash stuff and hang out.
Ideas..things to do until the job comes. And then relax after I get home on some days.
I am planning to write on here more because I find I am on a more even keel when I vent stuff. So Hi y'al, long time no blog!l

My Mom and StepDad took me with them to Coraline today....What can I say but it was Awesome...OMG when they drove up to ther house, and that first bit of her wandering around, I was like, this looks like Oregon..and...It was....Eeee I loved it, then they took me to PIzza at a really upscale place...and then there was Uber Sexy pic on one of my gallery pages that make me all happy and smily. All and all an awesome end to a day of cold wet job hunting...My mom and Stepdad are great..it was sweet of them...

All of my online RP buddies are vanishing... Save for a hardcore few, most of my online RP people have dried up and blown away..it's rather depressing. I know I am a dork...a total RP geek. But..I love making up new worlds and stories and so on. And some of these are people that I genuinely like as well...sighs....I am not feeling creative at the moment..I think I may go watch a movie...sighs.....

I am having such a Bad Willow moment..which I know..saying that makes me an even bigger geek....

I have been job hunting, and the market is seriously depressing. I need something. This is the main reason I have no  been on. I have been dealing with life, and not in a head space for lengthy journals. On another note I have been doing a lot of new art so that is good I guess.
I have also written a short fic which I will post under friends lock perhaps at some point. It's, bizarrely, a fan fic. Which I don;t usually do at all....oh well. I had to here. I had a scene in my head that would not go away. The best way to evict that sort of thing is wrote it down...... :) Anyway, just letting Y'all know I am still alive and I have been planning to post more but just have not had the wit by the end of the day lately.

LOng time no post, been busy...trying to find work....depressed..tired.....hopefully things will improve. That's all they can do. Working on it....^_^

My fiancee, is up at his Grandmother's property for two weeks out of the Month. We have been planning to go up to the place for Christmas..nice dinner, open presents...problem is. They have two feet of snow and counting. Darcy and his dad are stuck in the house with no hot water, no power. Which means he can't recharge his cell phone. They have no way to make hot food unless they keep a fire going all the time. which they can't I bet..I don't think they have enough wood. The power has been down for 24 hours almost...and it took Darcy almost fifteen minutes to traverse his way down to the mail box. The snowplows were supposed to come through today, but they are not scheduled til tomorrow or later....I am worried..asnd we really may not ave the holiday for this part of the family...


I miss him....

Me and my best friend found almost all of the packaging needs, boxes, tins, baskets and so on, at the thrift store and the Grocery Outlet. We are making cookies and chocolates, and homemade bread to send to people, or just deliver to people, they are going to be lovely, and it's what we can afford this year.

*Baked Goodies*
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Rosemary Shortbread- Hazelnut Shortbread- Plain Shortbread- Lavender Shortbread- Triple Chocolate Cranberry Oatmeal Cookies- Pannetone- Kugelhopf- Chilean Christmas bread- Yeast raised Soda Bread
Sourdough- Olive oil French rolls- Gingerbread

*Chocolate Truffles*
1)Kaffir Lime ganache, rolled in toasted coconut and cinnamon
2)Vegan Thai Red Curry with coconut cream bittersweet ganache, rolled in lemongrass powder
3)Rose Water Milk chocolate ganache, rolled in crushed dried rose petals and fine sugar
4)Star Anise and orange infused ganache, with candied orange peel
5)Rosemary and Vanilla infused dark ganache, with crushed walnuts and pink/or sea salt
6)Ginger, Cardamon, and Saffron ganache, with toasted sesame seeds and turbinado sugar
7)Earl Grey, and Grapefruit ganache rolled in unsweetened cocoa
8)Chevre, Jasmine green tea, medium chocolate ganache, with dried jasmine flowers
9)Meyer Lemon and Thyme infused Ganache, with candied thyme and lemon peel
10)Cranberry Milk chocolate ganache (cranberries cooked with meyer lemon, cinnamon,real vanilla pods, and turbinado sugar) Rolled in cocoa nibs and cinnamon

I got restless this afternoon waiting to hear form my mother. She takes my Gran grocery shopping every Thursday at the store by my place. So I usually meet them there and Mum buys me a coffee or a cup of tea.

Today, I left before she called to say they were there. I didn't know why I felt the need to go. . . .I found out.

As soon as I sat down this little red haired woman started talking to me, instantly I felt the negativity of her, but I kept talking, partly in hopes of cheering her up. She mentioned something about doctors and health problems. I told her about the Naturopathic treatments I had been using. I was met with unguarded hostility. She asked my plants could cure cancer. I told her that the woman who trained my mother had in fact helped treat cancer patients with in some cases more success then conventional medicine. She accused me of lying to her. My heart broke, as she touted her empty faith in God and Jesus, empty because I could see it was a defense, that she was scared as shit, and she didn't believe what she was saying. I told her, "I'm sorry....' She said, "It's not your fault.....My best friend just committed suicide because of a terminal illness...." Even slamming doors in my face she was reaching out, like someone drowning, for a hand offered. I have never run into someone so out of hope for herself. "I told her, if you believe that God and Jesus look out for this world, then maybe that's why I am here right now...and I am sorry to see someone so hurt, so broken, but sweetie there is always hope...." I am pagan, but I still pray for people, and she will be in mine....because my mother heals with her hands....I heal with my heart and my words..and if one thing I said to this poor woman takes root, sinks in, then I have done what I was meant to do there.....but Mama it hurts so much...I am still crying...I ask that those of you who care to, think good thoughts for this person, I don't know her name, I may never see her again....But she needs help, and hope. And kind thoughts goes a very long way....

This turned up with several people in my F-list....including Otterdance

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So me and my best friend floatingtide , are facing a budgetary crunch just in time for the holidays. Of course.....So we have devised this cunning plan....we are both good at goodies. There will be those who will be receiving boxes, tins, baskets and so on, of homemade chocolates, cookies, bread, and so on. Possibly even recipes included. :D we have the lists made out of equipment, and ingredients, and where to go to try to find them.....I am so excited..this stuff is gonna rock.  Truffles of unusual varieties, shortbread, and gingerbread, and Pannetone, and filbert crescents are all in the offing. Yay..this is gonna be fun...

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Firefly, Farscape, John Doe, Babylon 5, The Animated Batman series, Forever Knight

Okay so this is likely to be pure blather, but. I am making an effort to start posting regularly again. I have not had the brain power or energy to do so for a long time. I have lacked the wherewithal for many things. Depression does that to one. I am doing better. Which is a very very good thing. So here is my random babble for the day....though I may post something else later....
Nitwit, Oddment, Blubber, Tweak.....:D